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<3--ASH
O IN THE PIC OF IT.. I AM DA BRUNETTE ONE U LOSERZ WHICH MOST OF YOU SHOULD KNOW.. YAH YOU SHOULD
LUIS U ARE SO NEVER ON LINE NEMORE.. TO TALK TO MEH AND ITS NOT FAIR!!
<3<3---//ONCE THEY GET TO KNO EACH OTHER..
MAYB THEY WILL LEARN TO GET ALOONG...<3
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| i got an interview!! ahh.. finally.. hopefully this time..
it wont go ne where.. its mondayyy so i cant wait.....
its at jewel on 59!! eek! if i were to get a job there i`
guess i will be happy.. id work as a casheir tho... kinda
scary dont u think.. cuz i really have probz wit money!
errr pray for meh you guyz :) ---
sorry luis .. last nite.. im sorry
<3--ashhh!!!!
in y0u i trust//<3
eddittt::
er its like realy wierd..
my grandma goes into the hosptial.. and then muh grandpa goolsby
goes.... errr.. i hope they are alright 
hmmph.. there are always highs nd lows but thats okay.. juss gotta
have faith right? ... right!!
i reallly hate drivin` i dont like it.. i get to nervous.. er~ stupid stop signz
and.. red lights!--gosh... those are muh least fav things.. i hate stoppin`
i lov juss to go go go!! but o well my mom wants meh to get muh licence
tuesday of next week.. idk if im readii but what the heck.. yes i am~!~!
well muh mom is in quick care or whatever its called.. cuz she popped her
hip out .. or sumthing? idk.. er goshhh// man--<3
bleeperz--//
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| i talked to HIM for 2 hours last nite ahh i was so happy....
i will drop everything for him.. and thats what i did tonite..
its weird the way he called meh tho.. i didnt think he would call meh
and now i kno that crossed his mind for once.. i talked to him ahh
im estatic ahh iiii like him so much.. u dont understand.. all i can say is
THANK YOU GOD!!! for everything ahhh i lov you! and its not juss cuz of
him callin =meh for once because each day is blessed by God.. and he
answers our prayerz in his way...
--///sorry i kno its onlii a phone call but the phone call means
alot to meh-- we talked alot.. yah sumtimes there were some
parts where i couldnt talk to him about.. like alot of the time i couldnt say
nething like he watned to get to kno meh better but how do i tel him how i
feel about him.. i want to tel him alot of things.. like how i feel and how much
i wanna get to kno him the real him not juss the lil 'convoz' we have had..
and as it seems he wants to and im very happy about it.. uhh he is my
happyness well next to God that is.. and other friends but.. he changes
my whole day DIFFERENT!! eek.. i wonder if he knos that... i find it easier
to tell him how i feel in person.. like he kept on askin meh alot of things
like why its wrong to talk to him about certain things and it was like how
do i tell him that its cuz of his ((--) i mean how do i say that nicly.. honestly i
dont think there is a nice way to even state that.. and i respect her.. well as much
as i can// so.. its hard well one thing that kinda upseted meh.. was.. i kinda
was like remember u said.. that i liekd alot of guys.. and hes likes yah.. and well
he finally told meh what he ment.. he stated the whole david and scott thing..
well i was like the whole scott and david thing was like freshy year and i used
david to get to scott well at least thats what i claim which is tru in ways.. and
hes like well blah blah.. and stuff so thats hte onlii thing he got out of meh
i wanted to say that i like him and i want him as more then friends.. but.. how
could i do that.. i cant do that its wrong!! i cant .. i will wait.. waiting is fine..as
long as i am friends wit him.. its pathedic.. but i like him this much.. whats the diff
i rather be like waitin then giving up.. and never knowin.. its not fair to meh.. but right
now its not fair to HEr and i wont do nething.. yeah i wont.. i can do it..
but the whole convo lased 2 hours and imma call him tomorrow at iither 9:30 or 10
i am goin to.. with the help nad courage of GOD i will.. cuz idont know i cant call him as much as i do.. i cant... i need this extra push.. i prayed for him to call meh.. and he did
GOD is lookin` out for meh... thank you--<3
but hten if u look at the down side to it..
im gettin jipped but idk.. i like him.. im really confused
he said im a very confusin person.. i wish he would tell me how
but he didnt... he wouldnt cuz he said i wouldnt tell him nething iither
btu he dont understand i cant.. i fel like i cant.. it got really silent after
i said onething and he didnt say nething.. and i felt so stupid.. i wanted to cry
i kinda hinted at whhy i was cryin but he didnt say anything..
he said he dot kno meh that well... i was like huih i thought
i k new him i guess new events are to cum up i cant wait.. till
i talk to him tomorrrow..
<3---ashhh
ahh
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| welpz..
if you dress nicely, he says you`re a snob.
if you dress sexy, he says you`re a slut.
if you argue with him, he says you`re stubborn.
if you`re quiet, he says you`re stupid.
if you call him, he says you`re needy && clingy.
if he calls you, he says youu should be grateful.
if you don`t love him, he`ll try to win you.
if you love him, he`ll leave you.
if you don`t have sex with him, he`ll say you don`t love him.
if you do, he`ll say you`re easy.
if you tell him your problems, he`ll say you`re irritating.
if you don`t , he`ll say you don`t trust him.
if you lecture him, he`ll say you`re bratty.
if he lectures you, it`s because he "cares".
if you break a promise, you can`t be trusted.
if he breaks it, it because he 'had to.'
if you cheat, he`ll expect it to be over.
if he cheats, he expects to be given another chanc
** i love that thingy up thurr cuz its true and reminds meh of zak~<3
<3
i juss feel like bein` alone...
last night i talked to luis- which kinda brought mee happyness!
&& yahh-- <3//
hm summer is here &&
idk what to actually do wit myself
@t all // i guess i should go & get a job
but its not that easii
muh mommy & daddy are fixin` muh car
so thats costin a pretty penny lol
so i guess muh first pay*check or
half muh paycheck will go to em`
cuz i feel kinda guilty makin em
pay for all this stuff -- they bought
my car -- pays for the gas -- and the
insurane as of right now so i feel kinda
pretty bad// but uhh yahhhh
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today was pretty good
i feel better // && i laid
around all day so deff.
feelin better
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i lov this song
hmm makes meh feel better when i here it
"Behind These Hazel Eyes"
Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
<3 i will update later
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